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Being alone in the weekend makes me think even more. I hate this, this uncertain side of me, that I’m beginning to think that, there must be a split personality in me. Time and again I try to put a tough front, and tell everybody, I’m alright.

Sometimes its just a bit too much pain to bear, that I just have to say “NO!”, I’ve had it, I can’t take it anymore. The weak side of me, so helpless, that I wanted to hide it all these while.

Society is hard on us, and it’s not equal. We are judged by how we look, by our social status, by our job, by our car, anything. And it seems so unfair, because working hard doesn’t mean you can be on the top.

Sometimes you are being overrun by morons, just because they are better “sweet talker”. You are not being served, because of the way you dress. You are being bullied, just because you never show you’re angry or signs to fight back.You are being used, just because you’re kind.

Why bother being a good person? From somebody’s MSN I saw, which is really true, “being a good person is like a goalkeeper, people will always remember the goals you missed, not the ones you have saved”.

Should I be evil?

I’ve been really tired for the past few days, I wonder why even though I try not to work too hard.

I think perhaps its the accumulated fatigue since last month, and its acting up right now. Time and again trying to stay positive as much as I can. When there’s trouble, I just try to smile and say “Let’s do it”.

But apparently, sometimes is just too much to keep self motivated and stay on course all the time. Just gonna relax, and have some personal time to think about things. After all, I’m just human. Just need to let those negative emotions out sometimes.

Been missing for couple of months, due to busy work. Anyway, resolution for the year 2010.

• Learn to know my notes and play the music instrument
• Site revamp!
• Cure my illness
• Gain back confidence in what I do
• Redecorate my room
• Be a better person!
• xxx xxx xxxxx

Happy new year! And work hard for your dreams too!

It’s that time of year, happy mooncake festival.

Play lantern? How about a picture of the moonlady?

Happy Mooncake Festival

I’m just foolish. . . Whatever I done, whatever I feel, I just need to lock it away for the moment, just for the moment.